this will be our year

okay, so no one really cares about other people's dreams.
now that we've gotten that fact out of the way,
let me tell you about the dream i had saturday night.
i must have fallen asleep thinking about that flaming lips show in okc for nye that i will not get to attend.



because my dream was strictly about the flaming lips.
...and a few hundred wild animals.
everyone and every animal were walking in a massive field.
we were trying to get somewhere.
but i'm not certain where.
but the soundtrack was provided by the flaming lips,
that much is known.
it felt like i was in the opposite of their song "christmas at the zoo".
i need a dream book.
but i think it means 2008 is the year of the flaming lips?



so i seriously laid in bed all day after work on saturday.
and all day sunday...
watching movies, surfing the net and just doing a lot of thinking.
i finally watched "the secret" again.
and it helped pull me out of my funk for the time being.
i got up and straightened up my house a little bit.
it's still a pigpen, but it's getting better.
i am taking baby steps right now...
because of feeling like shit.

like the majority of the people i know,
i want to write a novel.
of course, this means for me i will need to spend a lot of time improving my grammar.
i finally decided what i am passionate enough to write about.
and i would like to pursue it.
it will be a lengthy process,
but i think i am able to turn out at least one good book in the next couple of years.
i think this move to washington will help in the process also.

so, one of the movies i watched during my bed rest was wristcutters : a love story
all and all i thought it was a pretty good movie.
i really liked the uniqueness of the idea behind the film.
but i still think it could have had a better story line.
i think the movie was based on a book though.
i can't remember.

so i have deiced to pretty much ignore everyone in my life.
i will not see you or talk to you,
unless you initiate it.
this might be viewed as me being a bitch.
you can view it as whatever you want to...
i just am tired of being backstabbed, lied to, put down, etc.
so if i don't talk to you,
it's not because i don't like you,
it's because i am doing it to everyone.
and if you don't initiate conversation with me by april,
then i will know how you feel.
and by that time i will be gone anyhow.
simple enough.
of course, i will probably change my mind before then
and start talking to people out of my own free will.
we will see.

this is my song for 2008:

the zombies - "this will be our year"

The warmth of your love
is like the warmth of the sun
and this will be our year
took a long time to come

don't let go of my hand
now darkness has gone
and this will be our year
took a long time to come

and I won't forget
the way you held me up when I was down
and I won't forget the way you said,
"Darling I love you"
You gave me faith to go on

Now we're there and we've only just begun
This will be our year
took a long time to come

The warmth of your smile
smile for me, little one
and this will be our year
took a long time to come

You don't have to worry
all your worried days are gone
this will be our year
took a long time to come

and I won't forget
the way you held me up when I was down
and I won't forget the way you said,
"Darling I love you"
You gave me faith to go on

Now we're there and we've only just begun
and this will be our year
took a long time to come

Yeah we only just begun
yeah this will be our year
took a long time to come