Thursday, January 17, 2008

treat it as if it is a potential lover

i subscribe to a lot of financial blogs,
which i don't get to read as often as i would like to anymore.
but i did read a blog entry at that made a lot of sense.
the steps listed in this blog entry can be used for many different purposes really.
i think the main key to success is being passionate about what it is you want to achieve.
i've heard it many times in the past...
over and over and over again.
but it's really clicking for me right now.
in a lot of ways.
i'm discovering a lot of things about myself that i never took the time to realize.
some things i'm finding out about myself are great.
and some are not so good.

today is the 2 week mark.
i've been making fruit & veggie blended drinks and doing the treadmill thing for 2 weeks.
they say that it takes 2 weeks to develop a habit.
but on this one, i'm gonna have to say it's going to take longer.
sure, i've been doing it without much of a struggle...
but i have to become more passionate about it.
yup, i used the word 'passionate' again.
i don't feel like i can truly make this a habit unless i LIVE for it.

right now it seems like i LIVE for my financial happiness though.
is it possible to live for more than one thing?
i don't want to turn OCD.
but for me, the only way for me to succeed at something is to treat it as if it is a potential lover.
i have to spend a lot of time getting to know it (lots and lots of research).
i have to think about it constantly.
it has to make me happy when i think about it.
i have to dream about it.
it pretty much has to consume my life.
that's what this whole moving and saving money has done to me.
i think i have darn near succeeded at that.
but i need to make some more space in my thoughts for this energy-boosting/weight-loss management.
it's a little difficult...
but it's happening slowly.
i just need to feel like this isn't consuming so much of my time.
i catch myself thinking constantly,
"doing this extra walking on the treadmill is great and it's boosting my energy levels, but it takes too much time out of my day. i could be doing other stuff right now."
and i am wondering if this is a good or bad thought?
is it good that i am even considering being able to do other stuff?
because i have been so lazy lately that i have not wanted to do ANYTHING.
or is it a bad thought because i am trying to con myself to get off the treadmill?
i guess i am thinking too much.

i got a few sample packets of emergen-c in the mail not too long ago.
people have compared it to airborne or e-boost.
emergen-c is fucking gross!
i would rather have airborne or e-boost.

speaking of e-boost,
i took some yesterday with some random dietary pill i happened to have (i don't recall really what it was because i have a few energy pills laying around).
and i was in the best mood i've been in in weeks.
i wonder if was the e-boost/diet pill combo?
i don't know but i'm glad i could be so happy for once.

also, toothache completely gone.
which is awesome! :)
didn't have to go to the dentist or use any pain relievers.

and speaking of teeth,
white teeth by zadie smith turns out so far to be a pretty good read.
i've read every night for the 6 or 7 nights.
i am trying to also get into the habit of reading again,
after taking such a long break.

i don't know if any of you subscribe to blogs via rss,
but if you do, please add my blog to your collection. :)

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